A new woman?

I have decided I am going to show anyone who has tried to lower my confidence by talking about my weight gain! They just want to get to me and make me feel bad; they want to make me feel like I am ugly so that they can feel better about themselves. But no - I won't let them win. Whilst they may have got to me, I am not going to let myself forever feel bad about it; I am going to do something which will make me feel and look better than they could ever imagine. I can't wait to see their face when they see me next academic year looking slim, toned and sexy!

I realise that lately I have let myself slip; I've been eating lots and lots of junkfood and snacks without a care in the world and in turn that has caused me to gain weight and stretch marks to boot. But instead of falling into their trap where they make me feel bad and I show them that they have made me feel bad by not eating or something silly; I am taking up running and I will get the best body I have ever had; a body I never once imagined I could gain.

Two days ago I ordered my running gear, and I am more excited than ever about starting up running. Not only will this make me look and feel good about myself, without becoming dangerously skinny, I will be able to prove that I am doing something constructive about my weight and even gain a hobby. I am hoping that if I do enjoy this sport I will keep at it for many years to come. I am really excited about doing it because it could be a good stress-reliever, I think I will enjoy it and it may make me look sexier than I ever have.

I bought some crop trousers for running from La senza spirit for £20, a sports bra from La senza spirit for £14, some adidas trainers from sportsdirect.com for £25, an adidas vest from sportsdirect.com for £12, a rucksack from sportsdirect for £7.99 and a flask for water for £1.99.

Also, on Tuesday I discovered an oil called bio-oil which offers specialist skincare to reduce scars, stretch marks, uneven skin tone, ageing skin and dehydrated skin. For me it will help with my stretch marks so I decided to buy some. I read many reviews on amazon about it and it has mostly been rated 4/5 or 5/5 by approximately 30 people, only a few people actually disliked it. But so far it seems to be helping; I've used it 3 times a day for, what it is now my third day using it, and it is already starting to work, also it makes me skin soft. I can also put it in the bath and I can apply it to my face, which has actually helped with spots too!

I have decided to make more of an effort to look after my body, giving my skin good treatment by adding natural oils which replenish skin and prevents and fades stretch marks, running to lose weight and build muscle, keeping spots to a minimum as much as possible by eating less junk food and using bio-oil, and taking good care of myself.

Whilst appearance isn't everything, I know it will make me feel better about myself and thus make me a happier person if I try to make myself look and feel good. I know my boyfriend loves me for who I am and doesn't mind the stretch marks or a tiny bit of chub, and he says he still finds me attractive no matter what. But theres no denying that I will be sexier if I was more toned, less spotty and had fewer stretch marks.